Hiding behind Failure.

I feel like I haven't gotten anything done in my life at this point. I feel like one big failure at every dream I've had. I wasn't the best friend I could have been. I'm here in Los Angeles alone and that's not how it started out. I screwed up a great friendship and I miss my friend. In a different way, before all the drama it was alot of madness and now that the madness is gone. I realized I had a really great friend in my corner. That's one failure among the many. I ruined a project do to ego and bad choices. I don't trust myself and I wasn't honest about my feelings with the project with my co-worker. That's just a few of my failures and boy are there many. I don't know what to do to get out of this failure funk. Will someone tell me how I can get out of this funk. I wish I had a fairy godmother or father to grant me a couple of thousand dollars. I would make a great short film and take care of some other things. I wish I was dating but I'm a failure at that. But how can I be a failure at that when I have never been in love with anyone in love with me. I had this sick and unhealthy way of loving people. I seem to be focusing on all my failures and not focusing on my strengths. But at this time I can't seem to find any great strengths in myself. So I'm hiding behind my failures. Any advice?