Looking for the light.

Where should I look? Should I look high or Low, should I carry my cross close to my heart? Two years ago I became a buddist and right now I'm looking for the truth. The truth and where does that truth hides. I have been torn between what is the truth of my heart and what isn't true. I have fought with every demon inside my head trying to understand the truth of who I am. I am a gay black man who is fighting this truth, not because it's wrong, not because your belief system has taught me that who I am is wrong but because I'm scared. I'm scared to let my spirit roam free. I'm scared of what your hatred will do to me. I'm scared that you want love me. I hope you will join me as a search for the truth. I have lived my life in fear. A fear that is based in hate and today I am looking for the light. I hope you will follow me as a discover the truth of my soul